listening to - rod stewart's on the XM radio right now watching - we just watched "saw II" last night. it was hilarious. reading - "the sound and the fury" - william faulkner
feelin' a little
if heterosexual men can't show each other their cocks, then what the hell are we doing here?
March 3rd, 2006 - 11:17 p.m.
hot diggety dog.
have you ever actually heard someone say that? because i don't think i've ever said it, but i certainly did just type it. and it wasn't even one of those things i planned because i thought it would be witty and quirky. i just randomly typed it. but now i'm feeling dumb and i kinda want to delete it but i can't do that since i just wrote an entire fucking paragraph talking about it.
my gold membership is about to run out again and i don't feel like i can really justify renewing it since i only write in here everytime i want to talk about how i'm about to turn 21.
oh yeah, that's why i said hot diggety dog.
FIVE DAYS.
the following things will happen in five days. 1) i will be done with my midterm paper for my lit class, of which i currently have two out of at least five or six pages. 2) i will be in las vegas. 3) i will be in las vegas because i will be 21 YEARS OLD.
i'm so excited.
oh, so me and cordell have been ummm... kickin' it? for the past little while. people keep calling him my boyfriend. but i dunno. he has twice now done his little "i'm too drunk and therefore i'm going to act like an asshole and have a little fit and make everyone uncomfortable" act. and this last time really pissed me off and i told him that and i didn't speak to him for a week, so maybe he'll be good. but if it happens again i'm over it and him.
it's so weird, i've wanted a quasi-steady boyfriend for so long now, and whenever i randomly hooked up with guys i almost always thought that there might be something there even when there wasn't. but now that i have a guy that i'm regularly sleeping with who really seems to like me, i kinda don't give a rats ass about the whole label of being boyfriend and girlfriend.
well, i did always know i was an indecisive bitch.
it's not like we EVER hang out when we're not drunk. it's not like we EVER go anywhere outside of work or my house. and it's not like i'm complaining because i really would prefer it stayed that way.
the only kinda really bad thing is that now that i have a guy i'm regularly sleeping with i've never had the urge to "play the field" more. i've been talking to david more lately than i had been, and we went out to brunch on sunday, and apparently tomorrow we're having drinks. i don't know, man, it's not like i ever stopped liking him. oh, and brett burwell returned this random drunk dial of mine, of which i didn't even leave a message, which was super weird because he had even stopped returning my emails and i had some bizarre feeling that his girlfriend wouldn't let him talk to me or some shit. that was a runon sentence. i just felt like now that i'm almost 21 i could be doing the things that made him feel like i was too young for him before.
