man have i been a sad ass loser the past few days. i'm really letting my continuing boyfriendlessness get to me in the worst kind of way. it's not helping that sam has started hooking up with a fucking olivares brother, one of the three that are all moderately cute and alarmingly lacking in height.

i myself was not romantically interested in this olivares brother, but the fact that he was hitting on me before he was hitting on her is what really got to me. just because she is more forward (read: overbearing) than i rightly means that she was to acquire said olivares brother were she so inclined. she definitely ended up being so inclined, and i was not, finding her asking me if i wanted some takeout from the place next door even when she herself was not hungry for the sole purpose of going over there to order it so she could hit on him.

sure, what is first seen as a strong woman who knows what she wants soon turns into an overbearing woman who will not leave you alone.

since this, she has been kicking it with this olivares brother hardcore style, and for a matter of days she was keeping it from me although it was painfully obvious. she thought i would be mad at her, and for what i don't know, considering that what i ended up being mad about was the big deal she made of it by keeping it from me. i was not interested, as i said, but i am continually interested in the act of getting some.

and i decided that if sam loses her virginity before me i'm going to rip off her head. and then i'm going to chuck it real hard at daniel olivares.

jealous? who, me?

why is it that me, a reasonably attractive, non-agressive until inclined to be so (read: in bed) woman has such a desolate sex life?

of course sam had to go and invite this olivares brother to drink with us after work on thursday night, which ended up being sad and uncomfortable for both nora and i. sad because sam had tried her hardest to convince us that the two of them had so much in common, and when we saw her lean over to say something to her and he replied "que?" we knew that the language barrier was just as we thought it was. unbreakable. he speaks little to no english and what spanish she claims she "understands" she does not speak.

what a fulfilling relationship this will prove to be.

and what the fuck made her think it would be okay with nora and i for her to bring her stupid fucking boyfriend to our after-work drinking time?! our after-work drinking time is just that, and it is so very rare that we invite others to share it with us outside of the medici employee roster.

being that he speaks no english and could not join in on our conversation, daniel olivares spent the time drinking (OUR liquor that sam OFFERED him that he DID NOT pay for), smacking his bubble gum and talking to his friends on his cell phone.

as you can tell, basically he was taking up space and DRINKING OUR LIQUOR.

after nora left and i realized that mattie was merely waiting for HER mexican boyfriend to finish working, i got real sad. i was basically a fifth fucking wheel and had to take a ride home from mattie and her mexicano. because there was no way in hell i was going to even ask for one from mr. and mrs. devoid of all forms of communication.

so i went home drunk and sad.

and last night i realized that being too young to go to the bar with my mom and mattie and sarah, which is what i wanted to do and NOT wanting to hang out with sam after she got off work made my friday night plans pretty limited. and as i laid on the couch eating takeout and smoking cigarettes i realized that i was one of those people that does nothing on a friday night and then feels sorry for themselves because of it.

and i wanted to smack myself across the face.

and so i finished the bottle of cranberry twist that i had taken home. and david came over for like a half hour and i felt a little better.

only because i was drunk. because i know had i been sober and he'd only stayed for a half hour i would've been pissed off.

i get pissed off easily, which is why i should probably always be drunk.

and as soon as i recognize this problem, believe me, you'll be the first to know.

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