so, i've been having a lot of trouble the past few days repressing my carnal desire to wring peoples' fucking necks. i am really quite over a lot of the people i know, and sometimes i wish i could just go somewhere farfar away. but then i think WHY SHOULD I BE THE ONE TO GO AWAY? WHY CAN'T THEY JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE SOMETIMES?!

i turn twenty one in less than two months. it's so weird to think that i started this journal a month before i turned sixteen. FIVE YEARS. that's almost a quarter of my life i've been writing in here. that's really awesome. to know that there's something i've stuck to for five years feels really rewarding. i would love to put up a new layout for the five year anniversary slash my twenty first birthday, but seeing as how...
1. i write in here kinda rarely
2. i have almost no free time
3. i have no internet connection at home
i kinda don't see that happening.
however, it would be pretty dope to make a new layout using a bunch of pictures from my upcoming birthday trip to las vegas.

THAT'S RIGHT. my mother is taking me and kelly to LAS FUCKING VEGAS for our twenty first slash fortieth birthdays. HOW FUCKING COOL IS THAT?! i cannot wait to get piss drunk for free in a casino while i gamble away all of my money playing the fucking slots.

i am so excited.

i kinda wish i could spend all of my time with my oldskool hyde parker friends. everytime i spend time with them i'm just so happy. but they're all too busy going to school far away. especially myriam. she's like seventy thousand miles away in ireland, drinking fucking pints and kickin it with hot irish guys. sometimes i wish that's where i was.

i've been saying for ages that as soon as i turn twenty one, i'm going to get a waitressing job somewhere else where i can serve alcohol and thus make tons more money than i'm making now. i ran into zach moreno last weekend and he's waiting tables at some place in the south loop, making bank. i really want to be able to get the fuck away from the medici, but what about my seniority? i've been there for almost five years! i started working there at almost the time time i started writing in here! and what about going to a new restaurant where i don't know anyone? that's scary!

BUT IT'S THE FACT THAT I SEE THE SAME PEOPLE HERE EVERY FUCKING DAY OF MY LIFE THAT MAKES ME WANT TO WRING FUCKING NECKS, AND SO THEREFORE IT IS A DOUBLE EDGED SWORD!!!

I CAN'T FUCKING WIN!!`

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